The F word

Like most women today I let my work take over my life and didn't bother finding my soul mate until I was near my 40s.  Sounds good right? Um not really, men suck these days so I got super lucky is the real deal. We both knew when we met that our goal was to have a baby ASAP, after marriage. It was like a fairy tale well sort of in my fairy tale the princess went to therapy. I quickly got pregnant within a couple months which was great. Cut to my daughter turning almost four and us trying to get pregnant again. I realize this is a hush-hush topic for many but why? It's not easy and it's a crappy feeling finding out all the time that you are again "not pregnant". I love doing research maybe it's the sociologist in me but I learned so much about my own body and ovulation etc. Our bodies are seriously the most fascinating little machines and there is so much going on. I tried all those little ovulation tests which honestly drove me crazy along with taking early pregnancy tests. I finally went to see a couple doctors and I have hope that we will God willing be able to give our daughter a sibling one day. Let's hope it happens soon because the clock is ticking. I put a lot of pressure on myself and honestly it's an emotional roller coaster. If any of you are struggling with this or anything else in your life please know that there are probably millions of people out there feeling exactly the way you feel. I try to remind myself to be grateful for what I have and if my daughter is an only child so be it. Hope the grandmas aren't reading this haha. We always want more or what's next or what we think will make us happier etc. Wherever you are today just remember to be thankful for everything you have right now at this moment and that my friends is the best way to get more blessings! Fertility sounds so serious, laugh about it, cry about it, talk about it and support each other.