What a challenge it has been to stay on track let me tell you! emotional ups and downs regardless of hormones..just based on life in general. I have been to the dark side (hamburgers, cakes, fries, alcohol and cigs) and let me tell you it might feel like heaven at the moment but the next day I feel absolutely disgusting! Even though I was really doing great and was on the right track, I know that this is just part of the process and journey. This is just an unfriendly reminder of what the dark side is like. I lived in this dark side for the past 20 years. How did I function every day??? Practicing yoga has taught me that how you treat yourself off the mat will definitely affect you on the mat. Exercise is a constant reminder of how strong and healthy I am at the moment. Today I took yoga again and even though I do feel stronger and more flexible, I just feel like I had betrayed myself by abusing my body the night before. I definitely will use this as an experience next time I am temped with alcohol or any other addictive substances. Anger is an emotion that also causes me to to numb myself with these types of horrible substances. Anger towards family or friends or just even the world, but most importantly anger towards ourselves. I realize that anger is better than sadness and depression but I also know that it can be a dangerous and destructive state. Jealousy or comparing yourself to others is also another state which can cause loss of self control. All of these are examples of toxic waste in your mind that may keep you from your true and best self. Heartache, ego and dealing with selfishness.Stop waiting for people who are selfish to change, we are all selfish and no one will ever stop. It is a battle you will never win. Even from child to parent. Give it up! Better yet just be more "selfish" or love yourself enough to always do whats best for you. Let's get positive!
I have to say it's been tough being in an environment where foods like bread, pasta, cheese, cookies and desserts are present and I am trying to get off my addiction. I have been blessed enough to house sit and have had the opportunity to create my type of environment ..here are some things in my fridge
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| prewashed! my favorite word on a package lol |
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| these are too yummy to be true! |
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| yummy berries for breakfast..when they are prewashed and cut it just makes life easier |
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| not the best tasting in the world but love the crunch and when you are hungry and they are in your face it works! thinking of getting some almond butter to add protein and yumminess |
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| my secret garden, my favorite place to hang with friends |
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| found this in the garden not sure what it is ..kinda looks like a cucumber |
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| I <3 Louise Hay she really changed my life ..well I changed my life but she helped ;) |
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| especially parents ugh stop trying ...posted by the beautiful Kim K |
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| that Thomas Edison knew what he was talking about! |
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