Quitting smoking and other bad stuff
Yes I know what you are thinking "I'm not a quitter" Very funny! I used to say it all the time too. So here is the deal people here is what I have decided to quit this year while I am Jesus's age 33
-Smoking
-Drinking
-Eating unhealthy food
-some other stuff too but these are the external ones
-oh and spending money which I don't think I have an addiction to but I do like to go out with friends alot to eat and I do like to shop but I really can't afford that right now and even if I could I don't really NEED anything
Ok so smoking...lets see how I am doing so far. I was doing well for a while, but seems like every time something went wrong I would go buy a pack. After a long night of chain smoking with my friends I think I am finally DONE.
I even drank alot one night and didn't smoke. Well there weren't any cigarettes around but still I didn't want one. Ok so I think I may have this not smoking thing down. YEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Drinking- ahh the perfect dirty martini or the sound of ice cubes in a cup with some scotch slipping onto it like a beautifully fitting dress. ME? alcoholic? never! ok so I first discovered drinking in my senior year of high school ..yes I was underaged but I became the life of the party and then I puked all over the place. It was fun sorta. Ok so I am usually a very shy person so I loved how alcohol made me soooo fun! Also besides making me fun it also made me forget my problems! Unfortunately it also made me make horrible decisions with late night food aka grilled cheese and fries with ranch. Well that was really fun until all of a sudden I woke up and realized I am an adult now that isn't a shy little girl and here comes the best part of this decision MY BODY CANT HANDLE HANGOVERS! So here is what I did, every time I went out I only had one drink ONE! UNO! thats it! One drink turned into zero...I hated alcohol, it made my stomach hurt and my body just rejected it. Except for this one time that I was really mad/disappointed in the human race and I drank prob like a bottle of vodka. that was I think like 4 months ago. After that experience I worked out my problem kinda sorta. Then I was good again for a while but this passed weekend it happened again, I was eating right, working out being a good girl, getting along with everyone not smoking everything was great. And then I slipped again. Oh boy did I slip. It's now Thursday and I think I am finally recovered. I realized that I have so much anger stored up inside of me that isn't coming out. So instead of feeling the pain I just drank instead. Will I do it again? I hope not. I don't plan on it. I do have to tell you though it does get a little depressing once you sober up and the giggling is gone. OK so don't go slitting your wrists lol. I am just saying work out your problems even if you cant tell someone how you feel try to talk to yourself or write a letter or something. Life is not easy. Even if you have a roof over your head, great friends and family and perfect health...we all have some demons. Do not sweep feeling under the rug. Express yourself, go to the gym, go for a walk or hike. Do not drink to make it go away. JUST FEEL IT it will pass.
Now to food- pretty much the same as alcohol or cigs. I eat to numb myself. I am not saying I eat like crazy but I did used to feel good from bad food. Thanks to "eat to live" it's kinda hard for me to even feel good from bad food anymore lol. sometimes it sucks. I wanna get that high I used to get but its gone! It's kinda strange but I am happy about it. Now I get a high from working out! yes this sounds very dull I know but seriously try it. Every time its like late at night and you wanna eat something bc you had a shitty day just stop and think what am I doing?? (as Drake says).
Shopping- ok so I love to shop and my favorite thing is beauty products like at CVS. Throw me into a CVS and I will buy everything that I don't need. So while you are in there stick to your list of things to buy. Do not roam around for fun and just buy everything you want. NO Bueno.
Eating with friends- I love my friends and I love to eat so this is great right? nooooooooooo! IT's bad you always end up feeling sick and tired and gross. Try to eat at home and meet friends for a movie or a walk or something I know that this isn't always possible so try to get creative. Meet for some tea. If you do go out try to order something healthy.
OK I am off to the gym.
-Smoking
-Drinking
-Eating unhealthy food
-some other stuff too but these are the external ones
-oh and spending money which I don't think I have an addiction to but I do like to go out with friends alot to eat and I do like to shop but I really can't afford that right now and even if I could I don't really NEED anything
Ok so smoking...lets see how I am doing so far. I was doing well for a while, but seems like every time something went wrong I would go buy a pack. After a long night of chain smoking with my friends I think I am finally DONE.
I even drank alot one night and didn't smoke. Well there weren't any cigarettes around but still I didn't want one. Ok so I think I may have this not smoking thing down. YEY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Drinking- ahh the perfect dirty martini or the sound of ice cubes in a cup with some scotch slipping onto it like a beautifully fitting dress. ME? alcoholic? never! ok so I first discovered drinking in my senior year of high school ..yes I was underaged but I became the life of the party and then I puked all over the place. It was fun sorta. Ok so I am usually a very shy person so I loved how alcohol made me soooo fun! Also besides making me fun it also made me forget my problems! Unfortunately it also made me make horrible decisions with late night food aka grilled cheese and fries with ranch. Well that was really fun until all of a sudden I woke up and realized I am an adult now that isn't a shy little girl and here comes the best part of this decision MY BODY CANT HANDLE HANGOVERS! So here is what I did, every time I went out I only had one drink ONE! UNO! thats it! One drink turned into zero...I hated alcohol, it made my stomach hurt and my body just rejected it. Except for this one time that I was really mad/disappointed in the human race and I drank prob like a bottle of vodka. that was I think like 4 months ago. After that experience I worked out my problem kinda sorta. Then I was good again for a while but this passed weekend it happened again, I was eating right, working out being a good girl, getting along with everyone not smoking everything was great. And then I slipped again. Oh boy did I slip. It's now Thursday and I think I am finally recovered. I realized that I have so much anger stored up inside of me that isn't coming out. So instead of feeling the pain I just drank instead. Will I do it again? I hope not. I don't plan on it. I do have to tell you though it does get a little depressing once you sober up and the giggling is gone. OK so don't go slitting your wrists lol. I am just saying work out your problems even if you cant tell someone how you feel try to talk to yourself or write a letter or something. Life is not easy. Even if you have a roof over your head, great friends and family and perfect health...we all have some demons. Do not sweep feeling under the rug. Express yourself, go to the gym, go for a walk or hike. Do not drink to make it go away. JUST FEEL IT it will pass.
Now to food- pretty much the same as alcohol or cigs. I eat to numb myself. I am not saying I eat like crazy but I did used to feel good from bad food. Thanks to "eat to live" it's kinda hard for me to even feel good from bad food anymore lol. sometimes it sucks. I wanna get that high I used to get but its gone! It's kinda strange but I am happy about it. Now I get a high from working out! yes this sounds very dull I know but seriously try it. Every time its like late at night and you wanna eat something bc you had a shitty day just stop and think what am I doing?? (as Drake says).
Shopping- ok so I love to shop and my favorite thing is beauty products like at CVS. Throw me into a CVS and I will buy everything that I don't need. So while you are in there stick to your list of things to buy. Do not roam around for fun and just buy everything you want. NO Bueno.
Eating with friends- I love my friends and I love to eat so this is great right? nooooooooooo! IT's bad you always end up feeling sick and tired and gross. Try to eat at home and meet friends for a movie or a walk or something I know that this isn't always possible so try to get creative. Meet for some tea. If you do go out try to order something healthy.
OK I am off to the gym.
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