Birthday Cake

and Christmas cake and lunch dessert and cheese and wine party and Birthday champagne and...ok needless to say I have been cheating. I also thought it would be a good idea to skip the gym pre bday party because I felt like my cold wasn't going away. I have to admit I had some chicken soup even though I am not a fan of eating chicken in any form but I think it actually helped me. I also heard if you cut an onion and put it in your room it will suck the bacteria out of you! Pretty cool! So eating cheese and all that other crap and skipping the gym? not a good idea. Well, it was kinda cool for a minute there but then I had to go back to the gym. Yikes I felt like it was my first time all over again. I definitely learned my lesson never to take a "break" again. Few days of is ok but an entire week was too much. It also messes with your head. Working out just makes me feel better and think more clearly. Regarding food, ugh its been tough giving up dairy with a fridge full of leftovers of the yummiest cheeses you can think of. I do feel kinda gross and like I have gained like 50 lbs which is just all in my head btw. Think I just feel really guilty for eating dairy when I know how bad it is for my body. I am pretty proud of myself for not smoking anymore. Maybe that's why I'm having trouble of letting go of my dairy addiction? So every new year I usually have the same resolutions as everyone else

-Eat healthier
-Quit smoking
-Exercise more

well guess what ? I already have accomplished all three of these !!!!!! BOOYAKASHA! thats from Borat I think? anyways how cool am I?  pat myself on the back thank you very much! Ya maybe I am not "perfect" and I had an extra slice of "Bouche de Noel" thats french for Christmas Log? its like this evil cake that tastes like butter and looks like a piece of log probably symbolizing the new loves handles you will achieve if you eat this entire thing. Oh so as I was saying yes cheese, chocolate and champagne (or any other drinks) funny how they all start with CH? chigarettes? lol and chopping heheh  ok focus.. so ya I am pretty proud of how far I have come but I also know that I have a long way to go. This year has been a year of learning and I am grateful for everything I learn every day (even if it is through a yutube person..dont judge me) so guess I need to work on new list of resolutions...for now I'll keep on trying my best =)


Love ya mean it ;)